stuck with silver

I exist to find out I don't know how
Je suis vaste d'un paysage
Pourtant si bref
Je me révolte et rien ne vient
Pourtant tout arriveI comfort my discomfort
But it still eats me in the end
The Sun is setting down
I stay awake, anywaySo many tales inside
I don't know why
I am made this wayFine art a recollection
Dark dreams and lack of hope
Fine dreams a dark collection
High fever and broken bonesEveryone getting gold hands
But I am stuck with silver
It's a strange feeling
Sorrow I constellateOnce I was ordinary, now I'm involved
With emotions I don't even knowThe present, the past
And all the things
I always thought
I'd never be afraidEveryone getting gold hands
But I am stuck with silver