On My Own

I'm alright, I'll be fine
Trust me, I don't like the ending that I've written this time
Brand new day, daily grind
Pour another cup of sunshine in this black heart of mineCrack a smile, shed a tear
Inching closer, ever closer to a life without fear
Open mind, open wide
Take a peek inside, maybe you'll find a reason to tryOh ho oh, will you believe me now?
And no, I'm not doing this, doing this just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish the circumstance would change
But for now, it seems like I am on my ownGuess I'm thinking I can self-diagnose
How the hell can an HMO know?
Call the doctor and the doctor said
Please press 1 for paymentTerrified of the unknown
Unknown discomfort ahead
Sometimes, I wonder what it's like being normalI guess there's something inside me, just not understood
Perhaps it's all within my imagination
Clock in, punch out, fade in, die out
It's just too much, I promise I am tryingOh ho oh, will you believe me now?
Crushing anxiety, it towers the reality
No-oh-oh, I'm not doing this, doing this, just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish my circumstance would change
But for now, it seems like I am on my ownWas I nurtured into this frame of mind?
Or is it nature that I cannot fight?
But still, I grab this pen to change my future
The past, I look for answers, nostalgia starts to blurNostalgia starts to blurI'm alright, I'll be fine
Guess you gotta just believe me when I tell you this time
No control, no complains
Life is like a happy ending, it does not work that wayOh ho oh, will you believe me now?
Crushing anxiety, it towers over reality
No-oh-oh, I'm not doing this, doing this, just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish my circumstance would change
But for now, it seems like I am on my own