Tired

I don’t wanna be afraid to wear shit I like
I don't wanna be the girl that I was that night
I don't wanna hear you scream againI feel I should hate you, but I hate me more
Still regret that I couldn't close that door
And let you stay outsideBut I'm so fucking tired of having to
Tired of having toDidn't even remember how to stay sober
Didn't know how my mind would work from there
Couldn't see any reasons to keep on going
But I did anyway couldn't let it winI'm tired of having to see you around
I'm tired of having to sleep in this house
I'm tired from anxiety
And I don't know where I’ve beenDidn't even remember how to stay sober
Didn't know how my mind would work from there
Couldn't see any reasons to keep on going
But I did anyway couldn't let it win
But I did anyway couldn't let it winWon't let it go any further than this
'Cause I’ve already been there and
I remember that I could not breathe
Won't let it go any further ahead
'Cause I'm tired of waiting for it to endDidn’t even remember how to stay sober
Didn’t know how my mind would work from there
Couldn’t see any reasons to keep on going
But I did anyway couldn't let it winI don't have any thoughts and my head feels numb
And I don't know where I’ve been
I don't have any thoughts and my head feels numb
And I don't know where I’ve been