Medicine

I don’t wanna fall in love
And fall apart again
I don't know if I’m ok enough so I keep taking medicine
To give my head a rest
But what did I expectI said I’d give him everything but everything meant nothing
But I still stayed so I could feel I’m holding on to something
And I feel like a burnout
Lie and say that I’m better on my own nowOk alright
I’m starting to feel nothing when I lay awake at night
Ok alright
I’ll fool myself with every other lieI still think of every word you said to me
Trying to ease the memory by drowning it in nicotine
I swear to fucking God that one day you’ll be dead to me
But right now just to hear your voice I swear that I’d do anythingI don’t wanna fall in love
And fall apart again
I don't know if I’m ok enough so I keep taking medicine
To give my head a rest
But what did I expect